Maybe don't read this one
I took a deal with myself to write some things I'm wishing. This post is mainly to shout into the void.
I wish I could allow myself to write in french as to not distance myself
I wish people who aren't attracted to me could tell me clearly, I just want to move on
I wish I could love myself, it's hard
I wish my TDS was successful and at the same time I wish I wouldn't think that (this is not a cry for help).
I wish I was oblivious to everything, peace of mind
I wish I could live my feelings a bit more, stop analyzing everything
I wish I would allow myself to like what I like (I'm listening to radiohead rn and I still have to justify it in my head because "I'm sad")
I wish I'd say no more often, at least those times
I wish I'd stop to write codes in my personal documents "just in case someone would read them"
I wish I could be satisfied with less
I wish I could comprehend what is my body, I still think it's someone else when I see pictures
I wish I'd stop thinking I have to suffer a lot for others to trust I do
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep